dealing with our story

I really like what Adyashanti has said about being aware of our stories yet holding them lightly.  Recognizing that we are going to tell our story yet knowing that there is a higher reality. 

After last weeks post and choosing to hold my thoughts and story lightly, I encountered some situations that required me to confront "my story".  I recognized certain areas of my life where I was operating out of fear and that this was not helpful to me nor to others.  I also recognized this fear as stemming from an old wound.  Michael Singer would say that this was a Samskara, which is "a cycle of stored past energy patterns in a state of relative equilibrium." (T.U.S., p. 54).  He says that "It is your resistance to experiencing these patterns that causes the energy to keep cycling around itself." (TUS, p. 54).  Samskaras block our hearts from being open.

Life has been showing me where I'm blocked.  It is only by becoming more intimate with what is happening in the moment that I have been able to clearly see this blockage.  Even though it has been painful, recognizing where I have been blocked has been a gift.  Now that I see these areas more clearly, I can choose to surrender the fear (witness and release it), deal with my life in a more effective manner, and make room for a Higher Reality. 

It has been quite a balancing act trying to look at and deal with these patterns while still recognizing that they only "approximate reality, at best."  My focus has been to stay present in each moment and deal with what is right in front of me, allow the fear and other limiting beliefs to move through me (by moving my awareness to the Observer) and trust God to unfold my life according to God's plan.  Thank You God and So It Is!