acting from the truth of eternal being

Adya says that as we awaken that trials and tribulations show up in our lives in order to purify us.

"As Jesus moves through his story, from beginning to end, he encounters almost nothing but trials and tribulations.  How does he meet each one of these challenges, from Satan in the desert all the way to the crucifixion?  From what place inside does he act?  You'll see that Jesus is uncompromising:  he always acts from the truth of eternal being.  This is an amazing teaching, and it's message is: If you meet your trials and tribulations from you own deepest realization, they will be released from your system and purified from you, so that eternal being can fully be embodied through your humanity."     (Resurrecting Jesus, p. 43) 


I have done as Adya suggested with a couple of areas of my life that are challenging.  I meditated and prayed in order to connect with my deepest realization.  I then journaled about acting from the truth of my being with regard to the challenges.  It was very powerful and helped me to deal with my life from Truth rather than from ego.  Now to continue to live from that Truth every day!

staying connected

It has been a very busy week so I will just write a short post.  Throughout the past week although I have continued to feel some hurt by God/life (it is as if I have had a lover's quarrel with God) I have continued to show up during meditation and prayer.  I have allowed the hurt to be present but not pulled away from God.

With regard to my daily life it has been a very eventful week and I have watched my psyche swing up and down like a pendulum.  It can be so easy to get swept up in the drama when things really start to heat up.  My goal through it all has been to stay connected with God despite the pull of emotions to get involved in the drama.    

"When you feel threatened, do you respond from you old conditioned sense of self-protection, or do you still maintain a connection with that still point inside-that point of clarity and love inside you where you're not afraid even when you are afraid?  The place where love is greater than the instinct to survive?"  (Resurrecting Jesus, p. 67)

Even though it isn't always possible for me to connect with that still point of love in the midst of a difficult situation, staying present with the feelings and letting go of thoughts, interpretations, and conclusions  eventually brings me back to sense of being connected with God.

an example of being on the path of nonresistance

I have had an unusual experience this week with regard to my spirituality.  Perhaps due to several current situations in my life, I have found that this week I have wanted to turn away from God/Spirit rather than get closer.  There has been some anger, some disappointment, and lots of questioning the meaning of it all.  I have felt very resistant to surrendering to God...and I suspect that surrendering and being vulnerable to God is at the crux of my current struggle.

I have stayed with the process by noticing what I am feeling and allowing the feelings to be present.  I don't know exactly what this is about or where it will lead, but I do know that I need to stay open to my experience and perhaps delve deeper into what I am feeling and perceiving.  I will keep you posted as I move through this experience.

Silence

"The greatest generator of conflict, both internal and external, is our addiction to interpreting and evaluating each and every moment of our experience."  (Falling into Grace, p. 133)

"As we begin to meet life as it is rather than as we think it should be, as we let go our our need to control and continuously interpret our experience, we start to open to life in a completely new way.  We become completely grounded in silence.  The nature of this silence is a lack of conflict with life, and the more we open to this state of nonconflict, to this state of inner stillness, we begin to fall into the grace of a different dimension of being-a dimension rooted in a deep intimacy with our own lives and with existence itself."  (Falling into Grace, p. 134-135)  

A deeper surrender is calling to us.  The Beloved is waiting for us to fall into the vastness of Silence where we will be enfolded in Love.  Be still and wait.    

a fresh and different perspective

Just for today notice how many ways and how often you argue with reality (judging, interpreting, drawing conclusions, rationalizing and justifying, planning and projecting, dwelling, ruminating...).

Most of us have spent most of our lives trying to change reality in order to get our lives to work, and judging by the state of our world, our methods do not seem to be working very well.  Perhaps it is time for a radical shift.  Perhaps it is time to stop struggling with reality, settle in to the stillness of the moment, and allow Spirit to crack us open.

"As we begin to meet life as it is rather than as we think it should be, as we let go of our need to control and continuously interpret our experience, we start to open to life in a completely new way...

As I noted earlier, part of moving into this new dimension of being often involves the appearance of certain cracks within the framework of our habitual way of perceiving life.  We start to become aware of a bright light that is able to shine through these cracks and in to our experience.  Magic and mystery reveal themselves as our old conditioned view of reality breaks apart, and something completely fresh and different comes in.  It is as if this new way of looking at things has always been there but we weren't ever quite able to access it.  This newfound perception is grace, where we receive and experience something that arrives from beyond the way we normally perceive life." (Falling into Grace, p. 134-135)

How paradoxical it is that as we accept things as they are, something new and different reveals itself.  God truly works in mysterious ways!!