It has been a very busy week so I will just write a short post. Throughout the past week although I have continued to feel some hurt by God/life (it is as if I have had a lover's quarrel with God) I have continued to show up during meditation and prayer. I have allowed the hurt to be present but not pulled away from God.
With regard to my daily life it has been a very eventful week and I have watched my psyche swing up and down like a pendulum. It can be so easy to get swept up in the drama when things really start to heat up. My goal through it all has been to stay connected with God despite the pull of emotions to get involved in the drama.
"When you feel threatened, do you respond from you old conditioned sense of self-protection, or do you still maintain a connection with that still point inside-that point of clarity and love inside you where you're not afraid even when you are afraid? The place where love is greater than the instinct to survive?" (Resurrecting Jesus, p. 67)
Even though it isn't always possible for me to connect with that still point of love in the midst of a difficult situation, staying present with the feelings and letting go of thoughts, interpretations, and conclusions eventually brings me back to sense of being connected with God.
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