Welcome to my blog about transcending the self. Instead of using the mind to fix or control your world so that you can be happy, there is another way. This blog is about moving your awareness from your limited, egoic-self to your Higher Self in order that you can be the divine expression that you were intended to be.


Many of my beliefs are based on the books "The Untethered Soul" (T.U.S.) by Michael Singer and "Falling into Grace" by Adyashanti. These books describe the path of moving your awareness from the part of you that tries to make your life work (ie, find happiness, security, love...) to the part of you that Witnesses or Watches your life unfold and your reactions to your life. As you become more aware of yourself as the Watcher, and you let go of the energies of the lower self, you will be moving towards greater freedom.

So instead of struggling to make everything go your way in life, why not accept what is (release the need to fix or control people, situations or your mind), open your heart and surrender to That Which Created Life in the first place! In other words, go with the flow of life and watch the amazing miracle that you are blossom! Please join me in choosing to move beyond the limitations of the personal self and to live a life of freedom.

To get the most out of this blog, I suggest that you read the books. I also recommend the CDs by Michael Singer (see the website below). I post on this blog about once a week. If you would like to be notified by email each time I post please send your email address to donnamccullough@cox.net.

Saturday, September 20, 2014

surrender to the mystery

Lately I have been focusing on the idea of surrender: surrendering to God and to the mystery of the unknown.  Some times I find it easier to surrender than others.  Also, I know there is always room for deeper surrender.

I was working on these ideas with a friend and during a time of contemplation I 'heard' my ego say "Absolutely not, there is no way that I am going to let go and surrender everything to God.  I am not going into the unknown."  As I sat with this awareness I started to feel some pain.  I allowed myself to feel into the pain.  After some time a childhood issue surfaced.  I realized that I had drawn a similar conclusion about being vulnerable in life and to others (i.e., to a certain extent I closed myself off from being vulnerable to others as a result of feeling rejected by my Dad...his moods and his ability to be open and loving toward me varied greatly depending on whether he was drunk or sober...one never knew what they were going to get from him).  Little kids are very open and vulnerable and when the adults in their lives reject them it can feel very painful.  Not letting myself be completely open to love became a way to protect myself.

Although I have worked on these childhood issues before, this time was different.  I saw my Dad as a wounded person, not as someone who was (at least at times) cold-hearted and hurtful.  I saw him as someone who was running away from his own pain...something that we all do in one way or another, and at one time or another.  I felt compassion for him.  Although I do not think that I have been holding onto a lot of resentment towards my Dad for all of these years, I have been holding onto a certain amount of discomfort with getting close and being very vulnerable and exposed to others.  Being willing to open my heart to my own pain (once again) helped me to see my Dad compassionately.  Seeing him as a wounded person enabled me to move into compassion and forgiveness.  

It is interesting to see the parallel between my ability to deeply trust and surrender to God and my ability to do this in relationship with others.

I am not saying that it is necessary to go back and re-live or heal from childhood issues as part of one's spiritual work, however, I do believe that whatever healings are needed will happen as we set the intention to open our hearts and minds to God.
  

      
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