I've read and studied this book so many times and now, as I am re-reading page 37 I am beginning to get the idea of who I really am on a deeper level. I say this to encourage you to stick with this process. Sometimes the idea of "becoming conscious of consciousness itself" or being aware of yourself as the observer can seem so elusive, so hard to really grasp and hold on to.
Michael says "Once you become conscious of consciousness itself, you attain a totally different state. You are now aware of who you are." (T.U.S., p. 37). You recognize that you are not the person who you thought you were. You really are not the sensitive one, or the angry one, or the victim, or the people pleaser, or the hard worker, or the funny one, or the critical one, or the spiritual one, or the good one, or the bad one, or whatever label you have chosen to give yourself.
YOU are none of these things. YOU are SELF. Period. No ifs, ands, or buts. You are pure Spirit and you get to this realization by taking it moment by moment, using every ounce of will power that you have, and tearing yourself away from identifying yourself as your experiences. The ego or personality or psyche is like a big vacuum that wants to suck you in. Use your head and say 'no.'
Instead, watch.
No matter how intense the feelings are, move your awareness to the watcher. 'I am the part of me that is aware that this is happening.' 'I am not this feeling, thought, experience.' You repeat this over and over and over and over. And you take a breath and relax. And again you say 'I am the part of me that is aware that this is happening.'
And eventually you will begin to identify yourself as Self. "You're not even a human being. You just happen to be watching one. You will begin to have deep experiences within you own center of consciousness...you will find that you are tremendously expansive." (T.U.S., p. 37).
Take a good look at page 37.
Join me today in focusing your attention on yourself as the 'one doing the watching' and you will be taking a giant step towards freeing yourself from the bonds of the psyche.
The statement "You're not even a human being. You just happen to be watching one" is particularly helpful to remember when we are confronted with the choice to get wrapped up in the small dramas that beckon during the day.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like the watcher is the God-in-me!